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pus.'— Avaricious! he is not so,' he had some mistress that saved him replied the Dutchman ; he is not fo- the trouble of hoarding it up;
but licitous for riches. Never, I am well the propriety of his conduct soon reassured, did he desire the wealth of moved that suspicion. I can now another; he is only careful of his form no other conclusion, than that own. But in the management of it being impatient to return to his own he exhibits such an ingenious and re- country, he remits his little fortune fined frugality, that the Dutch thicm- thither as fast as he makes it, and conselves are astonished at it.' _' And ceals from me his intention of going yet there is nothing about him,' i ob- and enjoying it there.' served, that betrays a felhth dispo • As nothing was more natural, or fition. He tal':ed to me about your more likely, I was quite of the same opulence, and the riches of Holland; opinion : but, before my departure, but he talked of them without envy. I became better acquainted with this
Oh! no; I told you he was not uncommon and virtuous young man. envious. He seems to want even that My dear countryman,' said I, desire of acquisition which is the very the day I was taking my leave of him, foul of commerce. I liave often pro- 'I am going back to Paris. Shall posed to him to ventu e the profits of I be so unfortunate as to be of no serhis industry in my ships.-" No;" he vice to you there? I have given you would say,
“ I have nothing to risk. the pleasure of obliging me as much The little I pofüis, I cannot do with- and as often as you pleased; do not out.”- And when he has fometimes refuse me an opportunity of returning yielded to my persuasion, and exposed the obligation. -No, sir,' said he, small fums to the dangers of the sea, you shall have it; and, in exchange I have seen him so much agitated, till for the little services which you are the safe return of the vessel, that he pleased to over rate, I will come this has lost his nightly reft. This is ex- evening, and request one from you, actly the disposition of the ant. Sa- which is of the most material consetisfied with what he can accumulate quence to me. I must observe, that by labour, he never regrets his not it is a secret which I am going to acquiring more; and, preserving in communicate to you ; but can be his economy an air of eafy circum- under no apprehensions on that acstances, and of dignity, he appears, count. Your name alone is a sufficiin refraining fror every thing, to be ent guarantee, I promised to keep in want of nothing. For instance, it faithfully; and, that very evening, you see he is decentiy drefed. Well, he called upon me, with a casket full that blue coat, upon which was never of gold in his hand. seen a grain of dust, is the same he • Here,' said he, are five hundred has worn for fix years together, ard louis d’ors, arising from three years is the only coat he poftefies. He did savings, and a paper signed by my me the favour to dine with me to- hand that will indicate the use to which diy; this is what he seldom does; I wilh them to be put. It was signed and yet
it is his own fault if he does Oliver Salvary. How great was my not make my table his own ; but he surprise to find it was destined for nochooses rather to dispose of that article thing but objects of luxury! A thouof his experces in his own way, in fand crowns to a jeweller; a thousand order to reduce it to what is barely to a cabinet-maker; a hundred louis ncceffary. And in every want of life, for millinery; as much for laces, and his frugality still finds out methods of the rest to a perfumcr. faving. But what most surprises me I surprise you,' said he ; · Yet is, the secrecy with which he conceals, you do not fee all. I have already even from me, the use he makes of paid, thank heaven, three hundred his money, I imagined, at firit, that louis for the like fooleries; and I have
much yet to pay before every thing we formed a mutual attachment.--She will be discharged. Must I tell it is no more! Were she still living and you, fir? Alas! I am a disgraced I were again to choose a wife, she man in my own country, and I am alone thould be the object of my labouring here to wipe away a ftain I choice. Yes, my dearest Adrienne, have brought upon my name.
In the I would choose thee from among a mean while, I may die; and die in- thousand. Others might have more solvent. I wish to make you a wit- beauty: but who can ever equal thy nefs of my good intentions, and the worth, thy tenderness, thy charming efforts I am making to repair my temper, thy good sense and thy amiamisfortunes and my fame. What I ble candour ?' am going to relate to you may be • In this address, his eyes, raised considered as my testament, which I to heaven, as if looking for her fpirequest you to receive, that, in case of rit, were suffused with tears. my death, you may take the necessary pute not,” he continued, “ impute pains to restore my character.' “You not to her any thing that I have done. will live long enough,' said I ; you The innocent cause of my misfortune, will have time to efface the remem- she never even suspected it. And in brance of the misfortunes of your the midst of the illusions with which youth. But, if, in order to make she was surrounded, she was far from you easy, you want nothing but a perceiving the abyss to which I was faithful witness of your sentiments and leading her, over a path strewed with conduct, I am better informed on that flowers. Enamoured of her before I subject than you imagine, and you married her, more enamoured after may with all confidence lay open your possession, I thought I could never do heart to me.'
enough to make her happy; and I begin then,' said he, smiling, compared to my ardent love for her, • by confefsing, that my misfortunes her timid tenderness, and her sensibiare entirely owing to myself, and that lity, which were tempered by modesty, my errors are without excuse. My had an appearance of coldness
. To profession was one of those that re- make myself beloved as much as I quired the stricteit probity ; and the loved her -Shall I declare it? --I first law of that probity is, to dispose wanted to intoxicate her with happiof nothing that is not our own. I ness. Good heavens ! what passion made calculations; but those calcula- ought Inot a man to indulge with diftions were erroneous. My impru- trutt, if it be dangerous, to devote dence was not the less criminal. But himself too much to the desire of pleasI will tell you how I was involved in ing his wife. it.
"An elegant house, expenfive furni“A reputable family, an unsullied ture, whatever fashion and taste could reputation, the esteem of the public, procure in the article of dress, to flattransmitted from my ancestors to their ter in young minds the propensities children; my youth; some fuccess in of self-love, by affording new fplenwhich I had been much favoured by dour or new attractions to beauty ; circumftarces; all seemed to promise all this anticipated my wife's desires, that I should make a rapid fortune by and poured in upon her, as it were, my profession. This was the very fpontaneously. A select society, formrock on which I split.
ed by her owninclination, thewed her • Monf. d'Amene, a man of for- the inolt flatiering attentions, and tune, and who considered my prospects nothing that could render home agrceas infallible, ventured to build his able was ever wanting. daughter's happiness upon these delu My wife was too young to confive hopes. He offered me her hand; sider it neceifary to regulate and reand as soon as we were acquainted, duce my expençes. Ah! had the
known how much I risked to please it was the language of our friends, her, with what resolution would the My father-in-law looked with connot have opposed it? But as the cern upon these anticipated expences, brought me a handlome fortune, it upon tis emulation of luxury, which was natural for her to conclude,' that ruins, faid he, the greatest fortunes. I was also in afluent circumstances. He expresied his disapprobation of it She imagined, at least, that my fitua- with some degree of feverity. I tion in life allowed me to put my calmly answered, that this emulation establishment upon a genteel footing. should never lead me into any indifShe perceived nothing in it that was cretion, and he might fafely depend unsuitable to my profession ; and, on upon my prudence. I have fince learnt consulting her female friends, all this what an impression this manner of rewas highly proper, all this was no fpectfully evading his advice, made more than decent. Alas! I said upon his mind, and what bitter refo too, and Adrienne alone, in her sentment it produced. modest and sweetly ingenuous man • The moment of my becoming a ner, asked me if I conceived it ne- father drew nigh; but this moment, cessary to incur such expences to ren- which promised to be the happiest I der myself amiable in her eyes. “I had ever experienced, proved to be cannot be insensible,” said she, “ to the most fatal. It deprived me both the pains you take to render me hap- of the mother and the child. This py; but I should be so without all ftroke plunged me into an abyss of that.
You love me, and that is forrow. I will not tell you how enough to excite the envy of these heart-breaking it was. None but those
What satisfaction can who experience such sorrows can imayou find in increasing it, by wishing gine what they are. me to eclipfe them? Leave them their 'I was still in the height of my advantages, which I shall not envy. affiction, when my wife's father sent Let the frivolity of taste : let whim his notary with the information, acand vain superfluity be their delight. companied with a few words of flight Love and happineis shall be mine.” condolence, that the writings were
• Her delicacy, though it gave her drawn up to transfer back into his new charms, did not alter my con- hands the fortune * I had received duct; and I answered, that it was on from him. Indignant at this indecent my own account that I complied with precipitation, I answered, that I was custom; that what appeared as luxury quite prepared; and the next day the to her, was nothing but a little more fortune was returned. But the jewels elegance than ordinary; that good that I had given his daughter, and taste was never expensive, and that the other articles of value for her own wliatever I might do, I thould never particular use, became also his protranfgrefs the bounds of propriety. perty. lie had a legal right to them. I deceived her. I deceived myself; I represented the inhumanity of reor, rather, I banilhed all reflection. quiring me, after eighteen months I was senable that I was living be. marriage, to submit to fo severe a yond my preient income; but in a law; but he insisted upon his right ihort time the emoluments of my pro- with all the impatience of a greedy feffion would make good the defici- claimant. I submitted ; and this feency; and, in the mean while, every vere exaction made some noise in the one approved of my affectionate care world. Then did the envy my hapto make my wife happy: Could I do piness had excited, hasten to punish luss for her? Could I even do enough? me for my short-lived felicity, and, This was the public voice. At least under the disguise of pity, took great
* By the laws of France on the dieath of the mother and issue, her fortune reverts back to her family,
care to divulge my ruin, which it ful reverse of fortune. At lal, this feemed to deplore. My friends were long conflict having overcome my fpiless zealous to serve, than were my rits, my exhausted strength sunk into enemies to injure me. They agreed a calm ftill more dreadful. I conthat I had been too much in haste to fidered the depth of the abyss into live away. They were very right, which I had fallen ; and I began to but they were so too late. It was at conceive the cool resolution of putting my entertainments that they should an end to my existence. have made such observations. But • Let me weigh,' said I, ' you, sir, who know the world, know, determination. If I submit to be with what indulgence spendthrifts are dragged to prison, I must perish there treated until the period of their ruin. disgraced, without resource and withMine was now made public, and my out hope. It is doubtless a thousand creditors, being alarmed, came in times better to get rid of an insupcrowds to my house. I was deter- portable life, and to throw myself mined not to deceive them, and, upon the mercy of God, who will making them acquainted with my perhaps pardon me for not being able situation, I offered them all that I had to survive misfortune combined with left, and only required them to give dishonour. My pistols were cocked, me time to discharge the reit. Some they lay on the table, and as I fixed were accommodating; but others, al- my eyes upon them, nothing apleging the wealthy circumstances of peared to me at this moment more my father-in-law, observed, that he easy than to put an end to every was the person who ought to have thing. But, ah! how many
villains given me indulgence, and that in have done the fame! How many leizing the spoils of his daughter, it worthless minds have possessed the was their property he had plundered. fame desperate courage! And what In a word, I was reduced to the ne can wash away the blood in which I cessity of escaping from their pursuits by am going to imbrue my hands! Will suicide, or of being laut up in a prison. my infamy be the less inscribed upon
• This night, fir, which I passed in my tomb, if, indeed I am allowed a the agonies of shame and despair, with tomb ? And will my name, ftigmadeath on one hand, and ruin on the tized by the laws, be buried with me! other, ought to serve as an eternal But what am I saying ? Wretch that leffon and example. An honest and I am! I am thinking of the fame, inoffenfive man, whose only crime was but who is to expiate the guilt? 1 his dependence upon flight hopes; want to steal out of the world; but this man, hitherto eiteemed and ho- when I shall cease to exist, who will noured, in an easy and sure way to make restitution to those I have infortune, all on a sudden branded with jured ? Who will ask forgiveness for a infamy, condemned either to cease to young madman, the squanderer of live, or to live in disgrace, in exile, wealth that was not his own ? Ah, let or in prison; discountenanced by his me die, if I can no longer hope to father-in-law, abandoned by his regain that eleem which I have lost! friends, no longer daring to appear But is it not possible, at my age, with abroad, and delirous of finding some labour and time, to repair the errors solitary and inaccessible retreat that of my youth, and to obtain pardon could conceal him from pursuit. It for my misfortune ? Then reflecting was in the midst of these horrible re- upon the resources that were left me, flections, that I fpassed the longeit of if I had the fortitude to contend with nights. Ah! the remembrance of it my ill fate, I fancied I saw at a difftill makes me shudder! and neither tance my honour emerging from bemy head nor my heart have yet re- hind the cloud that had obscured it. covered the dock I felt at this dread- I fancied I saw a plank placed at my
feet to save me from shipwreck, and • Oliver,' said he, (for that was that I beheld a friendly port at hand the only name I had taken) - you have ready to receive me. i retired into kept your word. Go on, I see you Holland; but before I set off, I wrote will suit me; we are formed for each to my creditors, informed them that other. There is one quarter of
your having given up all I had left in the first year's salary. I hope, and I world, I was still going to devote my foresee, that it will go on in a prowhole life to labour for their benefit; gressive increase.' and entreated them to have patience. « Ah! fir, I, who had never in my
• I landed at Amsterdam. On my life known the value of money, with arrival, my first care was to enquire what joy did I see myself maiter of who, among the wealthy merchants of the hundred ducats he had presented that city, was the man of the greatest me with ? With what care did I lay character for honour and probity; and by the greater part of this sum ? With all agreeing in naming Odelman, I what ardour did I devote myself to repaired to him.
that industry of which it was the fruits! Sir,' said I, a stranger perse. And with what impatience did I wait cuted by misfortune flies to you for for the other three quarters of my farefuge, and to ask you whether he must lary that were to increase this treafink under its weight, or whether by sure? dint of resolution and labour, he may
One of the happiest days in my be able to overcome it? I have no life was that on which I was able to one to patronize or be answerable for remit to Paris the first hundred louis
I hope in time, however, to be d'ors of my savings. When the remy own security ; and in the mean ceipt came back, I kissed the paper a while, I entreat you to employ a hundred times, and bedewed it with man, that has been educated with my tears. I laid it upon my heart, care, is not deflitute of knowledge, and felt it like a balm applied to my and is of a willing disposition. Odel. wounds. man, after having listened to, and Three years together I procured surveyed me with attention, asked who the fame gratification. This gratifhad recommended him to me? “The cation is now heightened ; for my public opinion,” said I. “ On my perquisites being augmented and joinarrival, 1 enquired for the wiseft and ed io fome gains, which I have acbest man among the citizens of Am- quired by commerce, double the asterdam, and you were unanimously mount of my savings. If this remitnamed."
tance has been tardy, I beg, sir, you He appeared much struck with a will notice, that the delay has been certain expreffion of spiritedness and occafioned by the death of the only frankness in my language and coun- truity correspondent I had at Paris, tenance, which misfortune imparts to and henceforth, I hope, you will be resolute minds, and which nature so good as to supply his place. Alas! seems to have made the dignity of the I may yet labour fifteen years before I unfortunate. He was discreet in his can discharge all, but I am only five questions, and I was sincere, but re- and thirty. At fifty I shall be free; served in my answers. In a word, the wound in my heart will be healed. without betraying myself, I said enough A multitude of voices will proclaim to remove his distrust; and prepof- my integrity; and I fall be able to sessed with a sentiment of esteem in return to my country with an unblushmy favour, he consented to put me to ing countenance. Ah! fir, how sweet a trial, but without
engaged and consclatory is the idea, that the He soon perceived that there esteem of my feilow citizens will be was not in his counting-house a man restored to grace my old age, and to of more assiduity, nor more emulous crown my grey hairs. of gaining information.
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