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associated—being suddenly removed from them—they seemed as dead to me. There is fine
which may serve to illustrate this fancy, in a Tragedy by Sir Robert Howard, speaking of a friend's death :
_'Twas but just now he went away ;
Tinie takes no measure in Eternity. To dissipate this awkward feeling, I have been fain to go among them once or twice since: to visit
old deskfellows--my co-brethren of the quill—that I had left below in the state militant. Not all the kindness with which they received me could quite restore to me that pleasant familiarity, which I had heretofore enjoyed
We cracked some of our old jokes, but methought they went off but faintly. My old desk ; the peg where I hung my hat, were appropriated to another. I knew it must be, but I could not take it kindly. D-l take me, if I did not feel some remorse-beast, if I had not,—at quitting my old compeers, the faithful partners of my toils for six and thirty years, that smoothed for me with their jokes and conundrums the ruggedness of my professional road. Had it been so rugged then after all ? or was I
a coward simply? Well, it is too late to repent; and I also know, that these suggestions are a comnion fallacy of the mind on such occasions. But my heart smote me.
I had violently broken the bands betwixt us. It was at least not courteous. 1 shall be some time before I get quite reconciled to the separation. Farewell, old cronies, yet not for long, for again and again I will come among ye, if I shall have
leave. Farewell Ch-dry, sarcastic, and friendly! Do- mild, slove to move, and gentlemanly! PI-, officious to do, and to volunteer, good services -and thou, thou dreary pile, fit mansion for a Gresham or a Whittington of old, stately House of Merchants ; with thy labyrinthine passages, and light-excluding, pent-up offices, where candles for one half the year supplied the place of the sun's light; unhealthy contributor to my weal, stern fosterer of my living, farewell! In thee remain, and not in the obscure collection of some wandering bookseller, my
66 works!” There let them rest, as I do from my labours, piled on thy massy shelves, more MSS. in folio than ever Aquinas left, and full as useful ! My mantle I bequeath among ye.
A fortnight has passed since the date of my first communication. At that period I was approaching to tranquility, but had not reached it. I boasted of a calm indeed, but it was comparative only. Something of the first flutter was left; an unsettling sense of novelty; the dazzle to weak eyes of unaccustomed light. I missed my old chains, forsooth, as if they had been some necessary part
was a poor Carthusian, from strict cellular discipline suddenly by some revolution returned upon the world.
now as if I had never been other than my own master.
It is natural to me to go where I please, to do what I please. .
I find myself at eleven o'clock in the day in Bond-street, and it seems to me that I have been sauntering there at that very hour for years past. I digress into Soho to explore a book-stall. Methinks I have been thirty years a collector.
There is nothing strange nor new in it.
I find myself before a fine picture in the morning. Was it .ever otherwise? What is become of Fish - street Hill ? Where is Fenchurch - street ? Stones of old Mincing-lane which I have worn with
my daily pilgrimage for six and thirty years, to the footsteps of what toil-worn clerk are your everlasting flints now vocal? I indent the gayer flags of Pall Mall. It is 'Change time, and I am strangely among the Elgin marbles.
no hyperbole when I ventured to compare the change in my condition to a passing into another world. Time stands still in a manner to me.
I have lost all distinction of season. I do not know the day of the week, or of the month. Each day used to be individually felt by me in its reference to the foreign post days ; in its distance from, or propinquity to, the next Sunday. I had my Wednesday feelings, my Saturday nights' sensations. The genius of each day was upon me distinctly during the whole of it, affecting my appetite, spirits, &c. The phantom of the next day, with the dreary five to follow, sate as a load upon my poor Sabbath recreations. What charm has washed the Ethiop white ? What is gone of Black Monday? All days are the same.
Sunday itselfthat unfortunate failure of a holiday as it too often proved, what with my sense of its fugitiveness, and over-care to get the greatest quantity of pleasure out of it—is melted down into a week day. I can spare to go to church now, without grudging the huge cantle which it used to seem cut out of the holiday. I have Time for everything. I can visit a sick friend. I can interrupt the man of much occupation when he is busiest. I can insult over him with an invitation to take a day's pleasure with me to Windsor this fine Maymorning. It is Lucretian pleasure to behold the poor drudges, whom I have left behind in the world, carking and caring; like horses in a mill, drudging on in the same eternal round—and what is it all for? A man
never have too much Time to himself, nor
little to do. Had I a little son, I would christen him NOTHING-TO-DO ; he should do nothing. Man, I verily believe, is out of his element as long as he is operative. I am altogether for the life contemplative. kindly earthquake come and swallow up those accursed cotton mills ? Take me that lumber of a desk there, and bowl it down
As low as to the fiends.
I am no longer ***** *, clerk to the Firm of, &c. I am Retired Leisure. I am to be met with in trim gardens. I am already come to be known by my vacant face and careless gesture, perambulating at no fixed pace
purpose. I walk about ; not to and from. They tell me, a certain cum dignitate air, that has been buried so long with my other good parts, has begun to shoot forth in my person. I grow into gentility perceptibly. When I take up a newspaper it is to read the state of the opera. Opus operatum est.
I have done all that I came into this world to do. I have worked taskwork, and have the rest of the day to myself.
T is an ordinary criticism, that my Lord Shaftesbury,
and Sir William Temple, are models of the genteel
style in writing. We should prefer saying—of the lordly, and the gentlemanly. Nothing can be more unlike, than the inflated finical rhapsodies of Shaftesbury and the plain natural chit-chat of Temple. The man of rank is discernible in both writers; but in the one it is only insinuated gracefully, in the other it stands out offensively. The peer seems to have written with his coronet on, and his Earl's mantle before him; the