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room, and there giving free course to my over my departed mother? What then tears, 1 sat down by him, and addressed must be the power of that sentiment, since him as follows:
I ceased to think of every other object but “ Sir, you are not ignorant of the mis- | my husband! I lived for him alone; the fortunes that have preceded my birth. 1 || past no longer existed, and the present was am threatened with the loss of a mother embellished by the anticipation of future whom I adore : the affection she bears me enjoyments. Six years bad elapsed with requires that I should take a husband to the promptitude of a blissful day, and I protect'me against the solitude that is ready | should have had nothing to wish for if to surround me; and you are the protector heaven had granted our earnest petition, that she has selected. Come, and receive and blessed us with a family of children. me from the hands of my mother; come, || Could I foresee, alas! that the accomplishand take your oath vever to forsake me. ment of that wish was to cost me so dear? To you alone, Dormeuil, I swear to be for | But, no; undoubtedly the sunshine of my ever grateful. Love me as I do love you, happiness was obscured for ever. The inand may I die before I regret the sacrifice constancy natural to the heart of man I make to you of all my wishes and inclina- | waited but for a pretence to be developed tions !"
in the person of Dormeuil; for never will He clasped me within his arms, and we it be in my power to believe that a husband both shed tears of sympathy. I remember can cease loving her whom he has choseu to this day all that he said to me, all that for his companion at the moment when he promised to perform : (he knows, alas! | she is so fortunate as to add one link more whether I have been deficient in fulfilling to those ties which already bind them. Not. my engagements.) A full hour elapsed withstanding the calamities that have be. before we were sufficiently composed to sieged me, be you well convinced, my dear return to my mother's bed. " Mother," || child, that I have not lamented your birth said I, embracing her, " be you hajpy; for one single moment. Had it not been for the spouse whom you have chosen for me you, what should I have had left in this is also the elect of my heart." Both our world after your father had forsaken me? parents blessed us. It was determined that The first intelligence of my pregnancy our marriage should take place as soon as
occasioned great joy to my husband; he possible; and I obtained leave to continue was enraptured nearly to distraction : for with Madame Depreval so long as the care although a weak-minded man, which to of her health should require my presence. every one besides myseif might serve as an
When we went to church, my husband excuse for his behaviour, all his passions was still in mourning for his father, I are violent in the extreme. He shewed me therefore appeared in mourning myself: every attention, he endeavoured to read alas! I was not doomed to leave it off for all my thoughts in my looks; he had become long time to come. The ceremony being my chief and most assiduous attendant, and over, I returned to my mother. Dormeuil | apprehended, as it were, lest any one used to come to attend to her, in company should come near me; he worshipped me with me, every morning; at night he re as a deity—but withdrew from me by detired. Three weeks after I was taken to grees, when, in consequence of my situhis home, Madame Depreval's sufferings | ation, his presence to me would have been were at an end. She had taken necessary most acceptable. precautions to secure to me her dwelling Far from complaining, I did not even house and fortune; and the apartment in think of accusing him: although 1 labourwhich I am now breathing my last is the ed under almost continual pain (for nature same in which my mother died—less happy not unfrequently makes us pay dear for the than I have been, less wretched than I vow happiness of becoming mothers), I was the
first to invite him to seek amusement. I Shall my imagination be capable of | did not wish him to partake of those suffere bringing back to my mind the period, now ings which it was out of his power to alleso far remote, when love dried up, almost viate; and I would have considered myself without any effort, the tears which I shed as unjust if I had required from Dormeuil
similar attention to that which, however, || he first became acquainted with such I had had an opportunity of shewing him. women who make a trade of talent During an illness that had made me tremble || and beauty-with that sort of women, in for his life, both by day and by night, I had || short, whom men pretend they can love to constantly kept near him; and when he adoration, without considering whether invited me to relax in my exertions, he was they are deserving of esteem, without even not aware that for those powers of mine I thinking that they are contemptible beings. was indebted merely to my earnest desire || Dormeuil, in his intercourse with them, of watching over his recovery. He even contracted a habit of seeking only for what ordered me to leave him, but I refused so might prove agreeable and captivating in doing: yet, when I requested of him to persons of our sex ; and if he loved me for seek amusement, he embraced me, and six years, it was only because during that obeyed the summons!
period I appeared in his eyes the most beauWho could define the contradictions | teous and amiable of all women. I was so which love gives rise to in the human extremely happy then, that my sprightlibreast? The docility of Dormeuil afflicted ness and vivacity delighted him; and I was me; and yet I should have felt more cha-| too young to mark out the difference be. grin if I had seen him too uneasy about tween a wife and a mistress. Alas! I had my health. During his absence I was at never been but the mistress of my husleisure to indulge my sufferings; but no
band. sooner did he appear before me, than I not
It was at the period when my advanced only disguised the tortures which he had
pregnancy impaired my faculties, that I not witnessed, but even affected in his pre acquired this fatal conviction. Sufferings sence perfect serenity. I found pleasure in are not favourable to beauty, and generally deceiving him; yet my heart suggested, occasion an alteration for the worse in our but too persuasively, that, had l been in disposition : I was less haudsome, neither his place, I could not have been so easily was I so lively as usual, and Dormeuil deluded.
consequently shewed himself less my lover, When you were born, my dear child, I Was I free from pain for a couple of days, still hesitated whether I should suckle you. he appeared more attentive to me; but if Notwithstanding this state of uncertainty, on the day following my features underI had neglected nothing to prevent your went a change, Dormeuil could scarcely being a loser by taking the breast of a conceal his returning coldness. He will stranger: your nurse was stationed close to not reproach me with accusing him; he my bed; but when I pressed you within himself has confessed to me subsequently, my
rms, all irresolution ceased, and the that, since he had been taught by adversity, stranger was immediately discharged. he could not conceive wherefore love alone
I must now inform you of what my ob- || did not for ever prevail; but, with regard servations had already suggested to me to himself, he never was sensible of love respecting the disposition of your father. but as a passion or a whim. Men renounce I was too deeply interested to procure a happiness by too early launching in the thorough knowledge of him in whom all pursuit of pleasure ! my expectations were united, and I loved
I was only twenty-two when I felt the him too much not to guess at what passed ) illusion of my felicity to vanish, and was within him.
reduced to have no other hope of retainivg When I had married Mr. Dormeuil he | my husband but so long as I should possess was twenty-five years of age, and the opu- my personal attractions: my serious cogilent circumstances which distinguished his | tations had already divested me of one of paternal home allowed him to indulge in my greatest charms in his opinion, namely, every kind of extravagance. Our morals of that candour and sprightliness which no are become so relaxed in the present time, || longer suited an uneasy spouse on the eve that he was free from censure ; and he || of her becoming a mother. might have been considered as a sage in This was the very time at which I quescomparison to the generality of young || tioned within myself whether I should men : but, unfortunately for us both, || suckle you. The austerity of a similar per
formance could only be conducive to Mr. ll you, my dear, that it is a cruel torture for a Dormeuil's absenting himself more and wife to have to blush, before respectable more from me: but, on the other side, what women, at the follies of the father of her consolation should I have left after he had children. I should have been grieved in parted from me, if I had consented to part the extreme if I had been suspected of with you? I loved him so tenderly, I only harbouring any jealousy: nothing could knew of your existence, so far, from the ever extinguish the love which Mr. Dor. pain I endured; I therefore, in some mea meuil had inspired me with; but my consure, might be allowed to hesitate. Your tempt for the rival he had given me, sus. first cry supplied me with due courage, and i pended that regret in me which betrayed I determined to fulfil my duty. However, tenderness calls forth. Faithfully adhering my dear child, exaggerate not to yourself to the plan í had adopted, I uttered not the the magnitude of the sacrifice I consented least complaint; 1 did not even wish to to in your behalf; if I could have relied on
appear being acquainted with that which a sincere and true return from your father, every one knew; and it was less as a warnI would have given him the preference. ing to my husband, than from personal
No sooner had I fixed upon such a deter- | regard, that I gave up the box I had in the mination, than I armed myself with as much house where his mistress made her appearcourage as the consequences I had foreseen ance. Was I, by my presence, to add to should require. Your father, who had re the malignity or severity of public report? paired his fortune by using the portion I At this period of the French revolution, had brought him, launched again into dis- || with a view of seizing his property, the sipation, without, however, entirely neglect. || leaders committed him to prison. I shall ing his business. At first, he was rather | not recai here what I did to procure his cautious to conceal his bad practices : some release it was a duty incumbent upon me. interested men wished to inform me of his In vain was it objected to me that I should doings, but I would not listen to them; at ruin myself, without any avail, for his the same time, some complaisant ladies ! safety ; that I ought to preserve myself for were anxious to let me into the secret of his | the sake of my child: I could vever have intrigues, but I silenced them at the very any conception of that prudence which hint. · I would never allow any one to sacrifices a present and sacred interest to speak in my presence of Mr. Dormeuil's | uncertain danger. My solicitations were connexions; my own jealousy threw more not listened to, I confess; but whilst enthan sufficient light upon the subject, but gaged in petitioning, I discovered the secret I devoured my chagrin in silence. Calm in of the tyrants and of the judges, and taking his presence, confident with dignity, 1 advantage of my discoveries, by dint of knew how to prevent hy my austerity such bribing some of them, I succeeded in havcaresses as would have stung me to the ing Mr. Dormeuil's judgment postponed. quick, and compelled me to betray my se Heaven heard the prayers of the innocent cret sorrows: whilst I lost the rights of a sufferers--the wicked turned their rage spouse, I strove to render the title still more against each other, and my husband was sacred; and if perchance I occasionally saved. dreamt of happiness, it was whilst gazing Dear, yet cruel, husband! weak Doron the cradle of my infant.
meuil! Hast thou forgotten those days of Mr. Dormeuil, by degrees, gave up act- purity which followed our re-union? In ing with reserve; and I had the mortifica the excess of my happiness, thou knowest tion to see him equally forgetful of what he || whether I was so destitute of reason as to owed to me and to the public, when he took upbraid thee for thy former wrongs: I in his pay one of those creatures who make would not even permit thee to mention their appearance on the stage, but who, for them. Thou lovedst me, thou lovedst me want of proper talent and abilities, distin-alone--the past no longer existed. Dorguish themselves only by luxury and the meuil, what a year of felicity ensued! If most scandalous conduct. At that moment thou wert not at present besieged by adhis behaviour afflicted me more for his sake verse fortune, with what ecstacy would I than on my own account; and I can assure recal that year to thy recollection! The
various circumstances come crowded, and || his idol: he felt for her that passion which cheer my imagination--my heart is full.--. || renders at once a man fearful and enterOh! my child, pity your poor
mother.. prising: with that passion that deprives a What must have been the corruption of man of every will of his own, he loved her our morals, that so much blood could not as he had never loved me. wash it off! The French had scarcely Blame me, my child, if you think I am ceased trembling for their lives, than plea- deserving of blame. Had I not a right to sures and luxury resumed a stronger empire complain of your father, after all I had done over them than ever ; the thirst of gold for him, when I saw him carry elsewhere became a rage that prevailed through all all the hopes of my earthly happiness? ranks, and confounded them more power- After having so long kept secret the pangs fully than the eager system of equality had which his conduct gave rise to; after having ever done.
spared him my reproaches to soften his Mr. Dormeuil, who regretted a small remorse, could I lose him anew, and not diminution in his fortune, commenced spe- strive to bring bim back to me-not by my calator; and speculations, it is well known, exclamations or violence, but by dint of
such as they were conducted at the time, my tears, which it was no louger in my di
lead to dissipation. I foresaw what was to power to withhold? To these tears he was 4 be the consequence, but could not ward insensible: he carried his barbarity so far
the blow, content to keep my own apart as to tell me I made his home insupportable ment, not to disturb him and his new part- to him. He even made a pretence of those ners, whose behaviour and manners were very embarrassments, of which he was the as offensive to me, as mine might prove real author, to keep absent from me more irksome to them.
repeatedly. You, my daughter, ceased beI know not in the palace of which of our ing the same dear object to him. Never modern Cræsuses he met, for the first time, will he who discharges not the duties of a a woman-whose history I shall abstain | husband know the whole extent of the due relating to you. How could nature have ties of a father : you will soon have a proof
succeeded in uniting so many contradictory of that sad, cruel truth, - L
qualifications in the same individual ?-the So far all the wrong was on the side of most captivating beauty to the most per Mr. Dormeuil : I now, perhaps, acted verse miud, the most ingenuous open coun. wrong in my turn; but that he might have tenance to the keenest duplicity and ma- preveuted, whilst I could not possibly suffer lice; the
appearance of mildness to the art for ever without my patience at last failing of tyrannising ? This woman, however, me. was loved by my husband. But what do I (To be concluded in our next,)
say? Loyed !--He worshipped her she was hi
THE MANIAC OF ST. JOSEPH.
A TALE FROM THE FRENCH OF M. DE GRAVE.- FROM THE CORRESPONDENCE OF
It was about the hour of two in the went out; when the same voice addressed morning, and the lamp which was suspend- | me, saying, “ Hearken-come-and do not ed in the middle of the court was almost make a noise.” I drew near, and near the extinguished :---as I was retiring to my last step, behind a pillar, 1 perceived a apartment, I thought I heard a noise at the woman dressed in black, with a white girbottom of the great staircase; I cried out || dle, and an abundance of flowing bair, twice, “ Who is there? what are you “ Hearken to me," said she, taking me about there?” A sweet and touching voice by the hand; “ I will do you no harm-do answered, “ It is me--you find I am wait- not hurt me. I have deranged nothing on iug for him.".
the staircase I am in a little corner-no As I was not the person waited for, I ll one can see me: that hurts nobody, Let No, 61, Vol. X.
him never know it: he will soon come ,, frightened too, when that first happened down; I shall just see him, and then I will I thought I was going to die. Presently, go away."
when it is over, I comfort myself by going Every word she uttered increased my to him: if he dies, I shall die also; but surprise. I sought in vain how to find out without that happens, it is impossible; we who this unfortunate person could be. Her only die where we live, and it is not in voice was unknown to me, and it was not || myself, it is in him that I exist. Some time possible for me to perceive herexterior. She | ago I was 'mad, very mad; and that must continued speaking to me; but her ideas not surprise you, for it was then he began seemed confused, and I only discovered the to go up this staircase. I have done every disorder of her head and the sorrows of her | thing I could in my despair, every thingheart.
but I wanted means ; and yet it was but a I interrupted her, and tried to point out simple affair; I could not die, however. to her our situation. “ If any one was to Now my reason is returned, every thing see you talking with me on the staircase!"
come sand goes, she herself. She is in this " Ah!" said she, “ I see you do not un medallion, see, it is a portrait ; but it is not derstand this: there is only he who is that of my friend what would be the use somebody-all the rest are nothing; and of that? He is so handsome, he cannot be when he is going he will not do as you do: more so; there is nothing wants improving, he does not hearken to what is said he nothing to be altered. If you knew whose only hears her that is above. Once it was picture this is ;-it is her's that is above. me--to-day it is her : but that will not || Cruel creature! what mischief she has done last." So saying, she took a medallion me since she came near my heart it was from her pocket, which she pressed fervento contented, happy; she broke, deranged, ly to her bosom.
and destroyed it. Tormented by the excess Just at that moment we heard a door of my grief, I have ran about every where open, and a lacquey, holding a light in his | by day and by night. Once I found myself hand over the balustrade, caused me to alone in the chamber of my friend: alas! distinguish a young man, who stole softly he was not there; I saw this picture on the down stairs.
table, I catched it up, and ran away." So Leaning against me, his unfortunate vic- saying, she fell a laughing, and then spoke tim trembled violently; scarce had he pass- || to me of promenades, carriages, and horses, ed her, than her strength entirely failed and I again found her senses wandering. her, and she fell on the steps nearest the | She was then silent for a few minutes. I pillar against which we stood. I was approached her, and said, "Why do you anxious to procure assistance, but the fear keep so carefully the picture of that wicked of bringing her into trouble prevented me. woman above ?"-" What," replied she, I took her in my arms; her senses were “ do you not know why?-it is my only entirely gone, and I had a small bottle of | hope: every day I take it, and place it beEuglish salts, which I put to her nostrils. side my looking-glass, and I try to form my She appeared to recover; I held her two | features after her's. I already begin to rehands in one of mine, while with the other semble her, and very soon, with taking I supported her head. As she came to her- pains, I shall look exactly like her; then I self, her nerves were seized with convulsive shall go and see my friend-he will be tremblings: twice I heard her sigh; her pleased with me, and will no longer desire chest laboured under severe oppression, and to see her who is above: for I am sure, if her efforts to speak were extinguished by it was not for her face, I should please his grief. At length, after some moments of taste much better. See now in what some silence, which I durst not interrupt, || people place their happiness, just in a set of « Hearken," said she; “ I feel it now, and I features : why did not he tell me that I ought to have given you notice. The ac- should have arranged mine, as I do now, cident which has just happened to me must and he need not have sought out a stranger: have made you uneasy; for you are good, it was the easiest thing in the world, and and you have been terrified : I do not won. would have saved us both a great deal of der at it. I was like you, I used to be Il trouble-but, certainly, he never thought