If I Can't Have You: A Compulsive, Darkly Funny Story of Heartbreak and Obsession

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Pan Macmillan, Jul 9, 2020 - Fiction

'One of the best books I’ve ever read' Ruth Jones

'This is superb . . . and compulsive and disturbing and very well done indeed' Harriet Tyce, author of Blood Orange


If I Can't Have You by Charlotte Levin is an all-consuming novel about loneliness, obsession and how far we go for the ones we love.

My name is Constance Little.
This is my love story.
But this isn’t the way it was supposed to end.

After fleeing Manchester for London, Constance attempts to put past tragedies behind her and make a fresh start. When she embarks on a relationship with the new doctor at the medical practice where she works, she’s convinced she’s finally found the love and security she craves.

Then he ends it.

But if life has taught her anything, it’s that if you love someone, you should never let them go.

That's why for Constance Little, her obsession is only just beginning . . .


'An exceptionally raw and visceral and painfully funny novel' Emma Flint, author of Little Deaths

'Brilliant. A perfect and completely terrifying depiction of heartbreak and obsession' Sarah Powell

'A blackly comic but heartfelt story of love and loneliness, with an endearing and damaged heroine' Sunday Mirror

'A darkly comic and beautifully written debut novel’ Woman

‘Blackly comic, heartrendingly sad – a brilliant debut novel’ Best

'Compulsively readable and darkly funny with pin-sharp characterisation’ Laura Marshall, author of Friend Request


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This is not a thriller, not a mystery story, nnot a page turner. It's an absolutely boring confusing story about a girl obsessed with some one she had a brief affair with. You feel irritated with the characters and the story line, which just refuses to develop into anything interesting. Completely avoidable, even if you have nothing better to do.  

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They all stared
The next morning
My weekend consisted
You buzzed me
London A city
It wasnt the
From that point
Everything changed after
No longer the
The next day

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About the author (2020)

Charlotte Levin has been shortlisted for the Andrea Badenoch Award, part of the New Writers North Awards, and for the Mslexia Short Story Competition. Charlotte lives in Manchester and If I Can't Have You is her first novel.

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