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by-and-by there you are. How much better to keep out of harm's way, as I am doing!"

He had occasion to praise his own discreet conduct many times during the next week or two. He did not avoid Juliet; that would look too pointed, and as if there really were serious danger. But he exposed himself as little to her charms as could be done without an equal risk in other directions. And here again Miss Salkirk was an invaluable resource. He could be friendly with her without exciting remark or awakening anxious expectations. She was such a good, cheerful, sensible girl!

The German lessons were continued regularly, though he sometimes felt as if Laura needed relaxation rather than study. How industrious she was; what an excellent daughter, striving in every way to lighten her mother's burdens. He had learned something of the family history, and knew how to estimate her worth. And he honestly wished it were in his power to do something toward brightening a life which had been hitherto too full of care. If the lessons did this, it was in a perfectly legitimate way. They were actual, bona fide lessons, not excuses for flirting at leisure. Laura had been long familiar with her grammar. So there was no room for pretty trifling over ich liebe;" and besides, Mrs. Salkirk was almost always in the room. She was a ladylike woman, whom Frank liked, spite of her habitual quiet and reserve, but he sometimes wished she were not as constant in her attendance. Though, of course, | he did not want to say anything that everybody might not hear.

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What progress you make!" he exclaimed, admiringly, one day. "Do you know what I used to think at first?" For he felt that Laura

and he were old friends now.

"What was it?"

"I fancied that German and puddings must interfere with each other."

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"Circumstances decide these things for us at first," she said, smiling. "After awhile we get at the true value of life."

"And I am such an idle fellow, blown about by every impulse of self-gratification! So you think the true value is in labor and self-denial?"

"Some elect souls have found it so, I cannot doubt. But I am hardly prepared for such an ascetic statement of my own views. I don't know what you can found it upon."

"So you would allow one a little indulgencea gleam of enjoyment occasionally?"

"Many gleams; a broad, steady glow of it. All the enjoyment not forbidden by some higher duty."

"Ah, there it is-you bring one up against that wall of rock-duty!"

"But it isn't I that build the wall," she said, very gently. Frank did not answer. He watched Mrs. Salkirk roll up her knitting and leave the

room.

Gone to see about tea, Laura knew. Frank did not concern himself with the cause of her absence; he was only thankful for it. Some things, undreamed of before, were growing very plain to his mind. What blindnesswhat ignorance! Could one have believed it possible? He saw clearly enough now, but was the vision likely to avail him?

"Tell me, honestly," he asked, "do you not utterly condemn a life like mine?” "Condemn !" she said, startled. "How should I? What right have I?”

"That isn't the question. I know your goodness and your charity. But do you not feel that it is wasteful and wrong?"

"Since you insist," she answered, coloring "If I had so many gifts and opportunities, I should wish to do more with them. A man has so much in his power!"

"Laura!" he said. She looked up surprised. There was something new in his tone. "Will Do the puddings you help me to do more with them here

"No; nor the German. That is the mystery. How do you manage to combine two such opposing excellencies ?"

after?"

Is it difficult to guess her answer?

She was so good a girl. I like her so well, that I wish I could honestly state that happi

"It is not so difficult when you once try. ness brightened her cheek, deepened the color of Necessity is an excellent teacher."

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her eyes, and otherwise lit her up from ugliness to beauty. But I can't do that. She remained plain as ever to the perceptions of all but those who loved her, and they did not trouble themselves greatly about her appearance. A man. to be sure, likes to be able to admire his wife, and Frank found ample exercise for this amiable

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weakness in the lustre of her hair and the sym- ter of supreme content to Juliet that her estametry of her hands and feet.

Mrs. Lewis and Juliet were at first in despair, but falling in next summer with a wealthy sexagenarian, they consoled themselves. It is a mat

blishment is many degrees more elegant than Mrs. Carroll's, nor could she be brought to believe in the entire indifference with which Laura views her superiority.

THE OLD MAID.

She has no kindred of her own, She asks no odds of love or hate, the iron hand of Fate

BY FLORENCE PERCY.

But grasps
And walks her cheerless way alone.
Yet once her withered face was young,
Her heart was like a summer bird,
She dwelt in happy dreams, and heard
The songs by Hope and Fancy sung.
She loved-as women rarely love,
And then their hearts break, or they die;
How dear he was! When none were by,

She kissed his ring, his scarf, his glove,-
She prized the flower he cast aside,
The leaf his restless hands had torn,
The very garment he had worn,-

Yet love was not so strong as pride.
Some light and trifling difference fell
Between their hearts, so fond before-
The shadow darkened more and more
Until they met to say farewell.

They talked of distant things-they laughed Although in Pride's grim vinegar-cup Love's pearls lay melting slowly up, Dissolving in the accursed draught

Even as they drank;-their hearts the while Were bursting with their hidden painAnd then they spoke light words again And parted with a careless smile.

Like that strange reptile which contrives If it by chance be cut in twain,

To heal the broken parts again

And make itself two halves of lives-
So will a woman, when her heart
Writhing in bitter pride and pain,
By love's denial or disdain

Is torn remorselessly apart-
Bind up the bleeding agony,
And when the victory is won,
Exist as two lives, on and on ;-
(Because, alas, she cannot die-)
One goes where'er the loved may roam,
Constant and unforgetful still,—
The other, with a bitter will,

Grows old and sharp and harsh at home.

And so the precious tie was riven,
Never again to reunite-

And from her life its one dear light
Dropped like a dead star out of heaven.

WINTER REVERIES.

BY E. MARGARET STARR.

All day the thick gray clouds have flown
Across the sky like things of life.

I, watching from my window, called
Them armies, deep in mortal strife.
The sun, a pale cold thing, looks through
A rift made in a broken cloud,
Just as a still white face sometimes
Looks to you from its folded shroud.
The snow lies in the garden path,

Icicles fringe the low brown eaves;
On the slender bough of the willow tree
Are clinging a few dead leaves.
In a broken knot of the old burr oak,

A birds' nest is sitting, a tiny thing

I remember now how the builders sang Over their work in the early spring. VOL. IV., No. 12.-51

There were violets then on the meadow slopes,
There was fragrance then on the dewy air,
As it playfully swept over beautiful things,
Mosses and lichens and grasses fair.
There was music then in the little brook

That swept through a gorge in the deep ravine.
Never a spring has been like that spring-
Never another will be, I ween.

There were tender eyes, full of glorious light, That looked with me then o'er this peerless earth; They are closed forever-I turn away,

Little its beauties to me are worth.

I turn away, for December's snows

Lie on my heart through each day of the year,

Only its cold gray skies can I see,

Only its wailing winds can I hear.

DORA CASTEL.*

BY FRANK LEE BENEDICT.

(Concluded from page 722.)

CHAPTER XII. Dora went to Mrs. Granger's dinner, and found, just as she expected, several of the leaders of the fast set she had grown so to abhor in her heart.

fairly commenced-she could not tell what devil possessed her, but for the life of her she could not resist saying the most cutting things to the whole set, each one in turn, and finally tormenting Dick Orme. All the while she felt that he was capable of suddenly howling out the truth about her in the ears of the company.

Dick Orme's wife was there with her little attempts at stinging with sugared words, and yes, there was Dick Orme-Dora saw him bowHe persisted in talking to her-he was seated ing to her but although she had been so anx-nearly opposite, and she could see that he drank ious to know what his first look would reveal, it even more wine than usual. told her very little.

He did not offer to come near her he looked much as usual, she thought-only paler and more insolent, so that she judged he had been off on some carouse such as people said grew more frequent with him.

The half-hour of waiting was nearly over before he came near her. Mr. Lewis had just left her; she could feel Dick Orme's approach, and shuddered as if some noxious reptile were crawling towards her.

"I saw you to-day in your carriage," he

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I saw you lift your hat, certainly. I could not suppose you intended an impertinence instead of a salutation."

He walked away without another word, just giving one look out of his black eyes which was absolutely like a sparkle of fire.

Dinner was announced. Mr. Lewis came to conduct her into the dining-room; it seemed to Dora that they were walking over a mine which was ready to explode, and that she had no power to warn the others or save herself -a nightmare as powerful as if she had been actually living through some frightful

dream.

She was very gay, though, after the dinner

* Entered according to Act of Congress, A. D. 1867, by

DEACON & PETERSON, in the Clerk's Office of the District

Court of the United States for the Eastern District of

Pennsylvania.

She would have been glad to have had any excuse for getting away; if she could only faint as she had done a few nights before! But noher nerves were braced as they had not been during all those weeks, and she could not resist daring the danger in every way.

I once heard a man describe being on an engine and seeing another train shoot round a curve towards them-the engineers were vainly trying to slacken the speed-he knew that, in all probability, an instantaneous death menaced him, yet he could only stand there and stare at it coming nearer and nearer-utterly incapable of making any effort to save himself, if any such attempt had been possible-could only just stand and stare, while it all seemed like some hideous dream, and through the suspense, in which every faculty was centred, flashed all sorts of broken thoughts and sudden memories which lay half a life back.

I can think of nothing that forms so fit a comparison for the state of Dora's mind.

She was watching the danger-she knew it came nearer and nearer-all the while, through her own reckless talk, through the idle laughter and conversation which was going on about all manner of things, trifling events connected with her past life would come up.

She could remember a wood where, as a child, she had picked wonderful flowers-the sight of some variegated blossoms in Mrs. Granger's hair brought them back-she could see the wood and her child self so plainly. Some trivial words spoken by a playmate-some sunny June afternoon- -Denis Halford coming up to the house, and she watching him through the blinds. Anything, everything that was utterly removed from the present, and all the while she could see

the flash in Dick Orme's eyes, always observant | Granger. "We wont hear him, will we, Mrs. of her, wherever he looked, with whomever he Castel?" talked, and knew that the danger was coming more and more near.

They were discussing a new English novelsome story of a woman's guilty secret, ending in ruin to herself and disgrace to all connected with her-some adventuress that made for herself a place, and kept it until out of her own past rose the ruin which overwhelmed her.

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"Yes; we shall want to know how to act when we get in debt," she answered.

She leaned back in her chair, playing with a bunch of grapes and looking straight into Dick Orme's face.

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She must have been a French woman," said Mr. Lewis. "Wasn't she a French woman, Orme?" 'Oh, yes; say a French woman, if you like,"

'The best part of the book is that it is na- he answered; "shall we, Mrs. Castel?" tural," Dick Orme exclaimed suddenly.

Everybody was the more astonished because literature was not at all in his way, and he had been drinking champagne while the discussion

went on.

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"Mr. Orme is going to astonish us by appearin a new character," Dora could not resist saying; a criticism on a novel! Really, Mr. Orme, I shall expect to find out that you have been a genius in disguise all this while—writing reviews, and hearing us admire them.

"I thought you disliked novels, Mr. Orme," said Mrs. Granger.

"But I do read occasionally, although Mrs. Castel does consider me a dunce," he said, with his wickedest smile at Dora.

"Call her the Queen of Sheba, if you please, only tell us what she did."

It was coming-at least she should be certain what he knew.

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She wanted to pay a sum of money—” "Well," said Mrs. Granger; "she pawned her jewels?"

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"Got married," suggested somebody.

"No; that wasn't in her line. Make a guess, Mrs. Castel."

She shook her cluster of grapes in a pretty way, and said, carelessly, never once taking her eyes from his face, and making him feel their power through all his rage and the recklessness caused by wine-—“I shan't guess; I'll wait and

"Oh, no; at least I never thought that," she pronounce a verdict." retorted, laughing, but with emphasis.

"At all events," continued he, "I read that book, and I insist upon it that it is natural."

'Ah, very well," said Dora, mockingly; “I retire from the contest. Mr. Orme announces his opinion in so decided a way, that I consider it as convincing as any argument.”

"I think it natural," he went on in a dogged manner," because I once knew of a case that was a parallel, at least."

"Let us hear it," cried Mrs. Granger; "I dote on real stories. You are sure it is true?"

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Quite sure," he said; "that would be its only merit in my way of telling-I can only give you the bare details. But Mrs. Castel will laugh at me for getting out of my line." Such an evil smile-did the others see it?"

'I promise not to laugh," she said; "at the same time I reserve to myself the privilege of doubt if it is about a woman-you men never are correct in your judgments."

"Oh, I don't judge! This is the story-the man told me who knew. A lady-a great lady, as the novels would say-courted and spoiled by everybody, found herself getting dreadfully in debt

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She committed a forgery!"

The women cried out in horror.

"An utter libel!" exclaimed Mrs. Granger.

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Really, Dick," said his wife, "you will never succeed as a conteur if you can't keep nearer probabilities."

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She committed a forgery," repeated he.

The cluster of grapes had not even fallen from Dora Castel's white hand-she had not stirred. so much as by a breath.

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Was she found out?" asked somebody.

Else I should not have heard it, I suppose," said Orme. "Yes; a man found it out—a man who had loved her, and whom she had treated. in the most outrageous way."

"What did he do?" half a dozen inquired at.

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"Oh, it's a vile slander!" interrupted Mrs. Granger.

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Dora looked at him still. For the life of him, ¦ pose, if they could have known it was the he could not finish-his story was falling flat truth, as you and I did?” and tame enough from the impossibility of rousing the slightest show of emotion in her face.

The fan dropped out of her hand; and as it hung from her wrist by the silk cord, it knocked back and forth against the side of her chair

Perhaps he paid her debts," said Mr Lewis, with the sudden nervous trembling which shook "by way of being heroic."

"I don't know what he did," said Orme, drinking off his glass of champagne. "I only wanted to show you that there was nothing improbable in describing a woman of position doing all sorts of out-of-the-way things."

There was a general chorus of indignation at his attempt at a story, and by the time it was ended, the ladies rose from the table.

"I have been learning to play billiards, Sophy," Mrs. Granger said to Mrs. Orme as they went up to the drawing-rooms.

"Oh, let's go and play," she answered, "those tiresome men will stay down there an hour, and it's so stupid, just us four women."

"Shall we go?" Mrs. Castel asked.

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The next thing she knew that man had both her hands in his, and was holding them in a grasp which was painful, and he was saying in a rapid, suppressed voice

"I love you so, Dora-I love you! You shall hear me now! Never mind the note--don't think about it! Oh, Dora, I'd give my soul just for one smile! Love me!-do love me." She made one struggle, and freed herself, so sick and faint, with such a blinding spasm of indignation and outraged womanhood upon her.

"One word more," she said, in a voice that was like the voice of a stone image, “and I will call your wife."

"Call the whole world!" he exclaimed. "I'm

You two go, and take Miss James to be um- not ashamed of loving you! I'm sick of this pire. I want to go to sleep on the sofa."

"You haven't looked well for a month," Mrs. Granger said; not that she had thought of it before.

farce of respectability! Call, you don't dare!" "I do dare, and you shall find that I dare." "Don't make me angry, now," he exclaimed. "You have driven me nearly desperate during

Nonsense; I am quite well. Go and play these weeks; you can't go any farther! I swore billiards."

you should not escape me so-don't make me talk like this! Let me tell I love you as no man ever loved you."

So the three went down stairs again, the billiardtable being on the dining-room floor, and Dora went on up into the great saloon that she hated With the remembrance of Denis Halford beso, with its collection of gilded fripperies, which fore her-with the thought of all that she had made it look, as she always said, like a second-done to escape this wretch, and to be obliged to hand upholstery shop.

She had not long to wait. She knew Dick Orme would follow her, and she had scarcely seated herself when he came in.

suffer the contamination of his words now!

She made a step forward.

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'Take care," said he. "Call, and it will be too late; you'll make me so furious I shall Ile walked straight toward her, and sat down speak what can't be taken back.” by her side.

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There is nothing you can say to harm me! "The other ladies are playing billiards, she Great heavens," she cried, "if there were, don't you know I'd hear it sooner than such words! That is the reason I Why, if I were drowning, and your hand would save me, and nothing else could, I wouldn't be degraded by its touch!"

- said, with a little yawn. "I know they are. came up.

"Hadn't you better join them?" she asked, sweetly. "I told them I was going to sleep. I am nearly so now."

"The hand that has held a pen to sign a forged name, can't easily be degraded," he said,

"What did you think of my story?" he with a sneering laugh. There, it's out now!

asked.

You want war-you shall have it! You wont

She was fanning herself negligently, as if let me love you; then you shall give in to my making an effort to keep awake.

Frankly," said she, "it was not a success; either the audience was not sympathetic, or you

were not in the vein for story-telling."

hate."

She sank back in her chair.

"Yes, that's better," said he.

"I am waiting for an explanation," she said.

"What would they have done, do you sup- "You will have to state distinctly what you mean."

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