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pable of doing this. He muft often answerobjections, endeavour to rea move fcruples, and resolve cases of Conscience. The word ucc OrteusATI, in the context'rendered teach, means to disciple or make disciples of all Nations, both in doctrine and practice. And the most effettual way to do this, muft be to form them into churches or focieties, and then give them all the private instruction you poflibly can, so that their judgment may be informed, their experience genuine, and their life and conduct suitable thereunto; so that they may be found in the faith, and upright in all manner of conversation, glorifying their Creator and Redeemer, in their day and gene ration.
[To be concluded in our next.?
The Experience of Mrs. REBECCA COMBÉ, eldest daughter of
the Rey. Mr. DAVID CLARKSON : Written by herself.
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Yet in my greateft distress and anguilh of spirit, I could not give up all hope, having some views of the free grace of God, as extended to the vileit of linners, who' I could not take the com
fort of it to myself. My sins appeared exceeding (inful. I even loathed and abhorred myself on account of them, and was continually begging a deeper sense and greater degrees of humiliation. I thought I could have been content, yea, I was defirous, io be filled with the utmost horror and terror of which I was capable, if this might be a means of bringing me to that degree of sorrow, which I apprehended the Lord expected from so vile a creature, The heinous nature of my sins, and their offensiveness to his pure cyes was ever before me, insomuch that I thought I could not be 100 deeply wounded, or feel trouble enough. :
This put' me on a constant and restless application to God thro' Chrift, from whom alone I now law all my help came. I had tried the utmost I could do, and found it left me miserably short of what the law required and I wanted. I was convinced, that an expectation of some worthiness in myself, as the condition of my acceptance with God, was that which had kept me so long from Chrift, and the free promises of the gospel ; and therefore, as enabled, I went to the Lord, and pleaded those promises in his word, which are made to sinners thro his Son. I was enabled to urge those encouraging words, Rev. xxxii. 27, “Let him that is athirst come, and whosoever will let him take the water of life freely ;" with many more of the like nature. I endeavoured to come to Christ, unworthy as I was, and cast my soul entirely upon him, for I clearly saw that all I had heretofore done profited me nothing, since my very prayers, considered as a sinner, were an abomination to the Lord. There was nothing left for me to take the least comfort and encouragement from, but the free grace of God thro’ Christ Jesus, which I continued to plead with much earnestoess, and found my soul enlarged beyond whatever I had experienced before.
Soon after, I providentially opened a manuscript of my father's, and cart my eye upon that part of it, where he was fhewing, what pleas a convinced sinner might make use of in prayer. Many things were mentioned which were very reviving. " I was misera. ble, and that might be a plea. I might also plead his own mercy; the suitableness, the largeness, and the freeness of his mercy. I might plead my own aversion to believe, of which I was very sensible. - I might also plead the Will of God, for he commands sinners to believe, and is highly dishonoured by their unbelief I might likewise plead the examples of others, who were enabled to believe to the laving of their souls, and that against the greatest unlikelihood and improbabilities that might be. I might and could plead further, my willingness to submit to any thing, so that I might but find this favour with the Lord. Moreover, I might plead Chrift's prayer, and his compassions ; - the work of his Spirit already begun; -- that regard which the Lord thews to irrational creatures; he hears their cries, and will he shut out the cries of a poor 'perishing finner ? - In short, I might plead my necessity and extreme need of faith, a sense of which was deeply impressed on my fouho
On reading these pleas I found great relief, yea, they were to me as a voice from heaven, saying, “This is the way, walk ye in it.” I was enabled to go and act faith upon the Redeemer, and could give up my all to him, and trust in him alone for all. I was now convinced by his Spirit, that he would work in me what was well pieasing and acceptable to God, and that he required nothing of me but what his free rich grace would bestow upon me. Now was Christ exceeding precious to my soul, and I longed for clearer discoveries of him, both in his person and offices, as Prophet, Priest, and King. 3!
· And, o how did I admire his condescending love and grace to
But these discouragements were fully removed by reading some of my father's writings, where it was observed, “That a person had no reason to conclude his sins were more increaled, merely because they appeared more, and became more troublesome ; since this arose from the opposition they now met with, from that principle of grace which now was implanted.” Hence I learned, that before, the flesh reigned quietly in me, and iherefore I perceived not the lusts thereof, but now all the powers and faculties of mysoul were engaged against them, they gave me the greatest disturba ance, and struggled more and more. Also these words were im
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pressed on my mind with an efficacious power, “My grace is fuf. ficient for thee,” which gave me peace in believing that it thould be to me according to his Word.
Thus, after many confliets, comforts, and supports, I deter, mined to give myself un io fame chuch, that I might partake of the Lord's-supper, and have my faith confirmed in the blood of that everlaiting covenant which I hoped the Lord had made with me, fince he had given me his Spirit as the earnest thereof. I accord. ingly waited upon the Lord in his ordinances, and found great delighi : my faith was strengthened, and my love increafed, from that fweet communion I then enjoyed with my Lord by his blessed Spirit, who often filled me with joy unspeakable and full of glory. Thus I walked under the sweet and comfortable sense of his love; and while in the way of my duty, I was indulged with such sighis of the Redeemer's glory, and such a taste of his grace, that I fre. quently wished that I might never more go back to the world again. * Bui alter all these manifestations (O wretched creature !) God in his providence called me more into the world, by changing my condition. This new relation brought new affections, and new temptations; which, being too much yielded to, insensibly pre, vailed, and brough me into such perplexing darkness, that I want words to express it. I loft the sense of the love of Gop; and hence my duty was performed without that delight whịch I had. once experienced; the want of which made me often neglect it, and especially in privite ; while I aitended on public worlhip with Jiule advantage or pleasure, . . The confideration of this decay in my love, and the loss of those quickening influences of the Spirit, which I used o experi. ence in duty, increased my darkness, and I had doleful apprehen. fions of my state. And inv inordinate love to the creature, and want of fubmission to the Will of the Lord, in disposing of what I had fo unduly set my heart on, prepared me to look for awful things, in a way of judgmeni, fioin the righteous God; which I afterwards found. His hand was foon laid on that very objeci, by which I had fo provo':ed himn; for a disorder seized him, under which he long languished till it ended in his death t.
This was a melancholy it oke, and more so, as I saw his hand Atretched out ftill; for I continued in an unsuitable temper, and without that submission which such a difpenfation called for. The Lord ftill hid his face from me, and it is impoflible to give a particular account of those perplexing thoughts and tormenting fears which filled my mind. Every thing appeared dreadfully dark, both within and without. O! were it possible to describe it to others, as I then felt it, they would read that which will separate between them and God! I expected, if the Lord did return, it would be in a terrible way, by some remarkable judgment or other; but oftentimes, from whé frame I was in, I could see na ground to hope he would ever return at all.
+ Her Husband died of a consumption
But was it' to me according to my dismal apprehensions and fears? Oh! no : My soul, and all that is within me, bless and adore his Name, under a sense of his free grace and love, who manifested himself unto thee, as a God pardoning iniquity, tranf. gression, and sin This was the title by which he manifested him. self to Mofes, when he caused his glory to pass before him (Exod. xxxiv. 6, 7.) And it was in the clear apprehension, and power. ful application of this, by the Almighty Spirit, that I was brought to admire so greatly, the grace of God thus discovered to me in fo extraordinary a manner, that it even transported my very soul with love and thankfulness, beyond any thing that I had experi. enced in the whole of my past life.
The beginning of this wonderful alteration in my frame, was hearing the experience of one which I thought very much like my own when the Lord first began to work on my soul. I cona cluded that this person was the subject of a real and universal change. On this occasion I determined to consider my former exa perience; in doing of which, I found the blessed Spirit of grace allifting me, and witnesling to his work upon my heart; info. much, that my soul was wonderfully enlivened in duty, and enJarged in thankfulness to God for thus manifesting himself, and directing me to those means which he had so inexpressibly blessed beyond my expectation.*
Thus the Lord drew me by the cords of love, and lifted up the light of his countenance upon me, so that in his light I saw light, which scattered that miserable cloud of darkness that had enwrapped my soul so long. Yea, he difpelled all those unbelieving thoughts which are apt to arise, on account of that low estate out of which he had newly raised me. The enemy suggested to me, that this was not the Lord's ordinary way of dealing with such provoking creatures as myself, but that they are usually filled with terrors, and brought down even to a view of the lowest hell, &c. Thus, satan endeavoured to hold me under believing fears. But the blessed Spirit, by taking of the things of Christ and Thewing them unto me, prevailed over the temptation,
I had a discovery of the glory of the Father; and likewise, of the glory of the Son, as proceeding from the Father, and offering a sacrifice of a sweet-smelling savour, and in bringing in an evera lasting righteousness, which by his Spirit he enabled me to rest wholly upon, as the foundation of every blessing which I have rea ceived, or he has promised, for the whole of my acceptance be.
* This shews the benefit of communicating experiences: “As in water face answereth to face, so the heart of man to man,” Prov. xxvii. 19. And though this great duty is much neglected in the present day ; yet thole who faithfully and diligently regard is, the Lord makes it exceeding useful in the quickening, comforting, and establishing their souls in their most holy faith. The wife man fays, ver. 17. “ As iron fharpeneth iron, so a man sharpeneth the countenance of his friend." Good men's graces, are sharpened by converse with those that are good ; and bad men's lufts are harpened by those that are bad. · VOL. XIX. ...
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